FACT: Happiness makes you more attractive. Sadness may be poetic but happiness shines through your eyes and smile; thus making it poetic.
I went through a pretty heavy slump for a little while but amazingly I was pulled out of that slump to this life that is near perfection! Of course, I don't want to jinx myself by claiming my life is near perfection but I have to tell you.... I have NEVER been this happy! Everything is falling perfectly into place. I love my family dearly and they have always and will always be there for me. What has really made a drastic turn for the better is my relationship with Ryan and my friends.
I'm lucky enough to get to see my friends as often as possible and for that I am SO grateful! I know it's so hard to coordinate schedules but they work with me so we can see each other whenever possible.
Anyway, on to Ryan and how he makes me so incredibly happy. I am not the type of person who needs another to be happy (Although, apparently it really helps). Our relationship has evolved into the one that I've always dreamed of. We absolutely love spending every minute with each other and we're also perfectly fine spending some time apart. We talk constantly and haven't fought or argued in weeks. I know some people out there are thinking "you're not supposed to fight all the time" and I completely agree with you... but I am the bickering type. I bicker when I disagree or get irritated, and when I'm hungry or tired. I'm not angry and the conversation doesn't get heated, we just tend to bicker about little things here and there. Well, the past few weeks/months we haven't even done that. It's purely happiness in our relationship!! I LOVE IT! He makes me so happy and he's so sweet it's unbelievable! He's always been sweet/nice to me (I think we're going on knowing each other for 15 years!!!!!! ) but he's really sweeping me off my feet!
We are rounding off 1 year of dating and I could not be happier! This is the first relationship that I remember every detail of anything we've ever done! I remember when we first crossed the line from friends to "dating", I remember our first date and when he asked me to be his girlfriend, I remember every place we've ever been and every meal we've ever had. None of that has ever mattered to me before but for some reason with him I remember, and I love to remember, every detail of our time together.
Ryan is such a good person it amazes me! He's patient and sweet, caring and tender, strong and determined, and just plain unbelievable. He has so much love to give! If you could only see his eyes light up when he talks about that certain someone who really makes his heart melt, you would see how much love he has just waiting to be distributed! He really has spoiled me with his love and I absolutely love him 100% back. I never thought I would find a person who can love me so much and not make me feel negative about it. I always worry about feeling smothered and I always worried that I would be the person who hurts the other in the end. I really don't worry about that anymore. I don't see an end to our relationship..... I don't feel smothered.... I love when he calls or texts me just to let me know he misses me and is thinking about me.
I fall in love with the little things over and over again. I treasure the cards he gives me because his letters are so, so, so very sweet! I love every picture I have with him because I can see his personality. He's shy but confident, funny and cute, sweet and caring, and he's so incredibly trustworthy. I never, ever worry about him cheating (which is crazy because a year ago I was convinced every young adult has cheated, does cheat, will cheat or has been cheated on). I mean really.... where do people come off acting like they can have it all at their "loved ones" expense???
Anyway, I'm going to share this little detail with you because I was REALLY excited about it! Okay, so to paint the picture for you... I am a 5'11" "voluptuous and curvy" woman. I'm pretty much a giant amazon woman! This past weekend, my boyfriend was in the kitchen making me breakfast when I was standing in the living room talkin smack like I normally do and he came at me with his "attitude" (wide eyed, taking long strides and saying: "What did you say? What did you say to me??"). Then he lifted me up, tossed me over his shoulder and carried me into his room. He chucked me on the bed and started tickling me!! Classic movie scene that makes you want to vomit and change the channel but I swear it was the cutest thing ever!!! PLUS! I've never been carried around like that before! Do you know how rare it is for a girl my size to be tossed around??? AMAZING! lol. He really impressed me! All that working out is really paying off ;-)
Okay, I swear I'm done obsessing over how amazing my boyfriend is! But as a last note, he has the longest arms EVER and I absolutely love how they wrap perfectly around me and make me feel so comfortable and safe.
